在与倪晨曦Elva的采访之前，我已经构思好了，见面时不要谈论任何事情，总之，先恭喜她最近成功举办婚宴。从女性的角度来看，结婚被视为人生最重要的项目之一，完成一场婚礼就像实现一个梦想。
“Actually, whether or not the wedding is held doesn’t really matter anymore, because due to the pandemic, it has been postponed to three years later today… People who have experienced the pandemic are already accustomed to not easily stirring up emotions and not daring to hold high expectations for well-planned events. A life’s ‘masterpiece’ is seen as insignificant, it’s just the way things are. As for professional masterpieces, Elva honestly explains that she no longer insists on pursuing them. Instead, she continuously extends her creativity, creating a unique style, which is actually a kind of masterpiece.”
不卖幻想卖诚实
Earlier, an advertising media monitoring company released a report on the total sales of brand content advertisements in the first quarter of this year. Ni Chenxi ranked 4th in the top 10 KOL rankings, surpassing Jiang Tao. In the past, we used “platinum” as the unit to measure the value of a singer, and “box office” to measure the value of an actor. In the entertainment industry, who hasn’t dreamed of having a “representative work”? However, Elva, who is neither a singer nor an actor, is currently working as an influencer, and her work nature is fragmented. To be honest, it is difficult for her to have a so-called representative work.
“坦白说，我也曾经想过自己有什么能让人留下深刻印象，但换个角度，别人所喜欢的我，包含了我的性格与特质，代表作在我身上，反而不是以实体形式而进行，细腻地分享、延伸更多层面的创作，是我当前的目标。”在这是贩卖幻想的行业中，去讨论真实感，本质上是充满矛盾与冲突。”现今这世代所有人都以 Social Media 去建构自己、认识对方，基本上很难再伪装，无疑是辛苦的，甚至必需以赤裸的心态去面对我的工作，惟有在自己最舒服的方式下呈现真实的自己。”愈是能诚实，就愈能丰富自己的价值，对大众坦诚，也是一种才能。
有孩子的人生，就等于活第二次童年
毕加索曾说：“我花了4年时间画得像Raphael一样，但用一生时间，才能像孩子一样画画。”而村上隆也以“向儿童学习幼稚”为创作灵感。作为育有两子的母亲，倪晨曦穿着当季华美时装，在镜头前展现出的笑容是冷酷的，而切换成由心而发的纯真笑脸，就是谈论起两个儿子的日常事情时。每当提起儿子，Elva平日已经足够温柔的声线，原来还有更温柔的空间。
“我的大儿子跟我性格截然不同，我粗心大意，他小心谨慎；我不擅长数学，他则可以中英背诵三角形到十二边形。他总是来填补我所有不擅长的地方。”先不谈有小孩的人生，光是一个人的童年经历，就足以动摇其整个人生的幸福度，如果可以把不完美的童年或重设或弥补，也许生小孩是其中一门办法。Elva的妈妈，年轻时热爱跳舞，技巧及才能足以令她成为舞蹈演员的专业程度，对跳舞艺术虽存有热情，偏偏自信方面不争气，莫说是表演，光是在人前演说已经甚有难度。后来Elva妈妈在结婚生子后，舞台上的一切本来已经与她无关。
“Several years ago, my mother participated in a beauty and talent competition in Canada and won. When I first heard about it, I was both skeptical and surprised. Was it because life in Canada was too dull and she needed some excitement? Or was it because my own experience in beauty pageants influenced her? In any case, she never liked stepping onto the stage, but now she is willing to show her performing desires. I still find that transformation miraculous. In one way or another, Elva became the catalyst for her mother’s dreams, and it’s truly unexpected how children can inspire learning.”
由原生自我作畫
在当代艺术家中，尤其是日本，经常以小孩的构图用作发掘自我的表达工具，譬如奈良美智。纪录片《跟着奈良美智一起去旅行》里的一段旁白「因为大家心里都住着一个敏感孤独，忍着不哭的孩子。」奈良美智笔下的大眼娃娃，透露着对孤独而脆弱的自己的映照。而被艺术销售平台 Artsy 选为 2022 年最受欢迎的 10 位艺术家之一的六角彩子，在自由挥洒与浓艳色彩的涂鸦风格下，借由标志性的小孩作画，重新与自身内在小孩相遇。跟 Elva 谈起画作艺术，坦言对此范畴没有深刻的研究，但总觉自己现在的工作与目标之间，好比油画般。
“原生最自我就如一张画布，每当尝试一项工作，就会多一层色彩，总是可以有不同元素发生在自己身上。”经过一层又一层色彩加工，却没有遗忘根本，无论你从杂志、电视、YouTube或Instagram哪种渠道去检视倪晨曦，她都几乎360度零死角，Elva的没破绽却从来没有为她带来酸民的口诛笔伐，甚至连「P图」也几乎从来没在人前断正过，人美心善起来连照片都难得那么规规矩矩。最近，Elva把一头短发驳长，网友称转换形象后简直如真女神，偏偏却没有唤醒大儿子的赞美神经，Elva笑言儿子还没有掌握美的意识吧。但以我看来，倪晨曦的美就是一个整体，因为儿子看到的完美只有一种，理所当然没有枝节。
执行制片人：Angus Mok
摄影师：Ricky Lo
艺术指导：Ricky Lo & Mimi Kong
造型：Mimi Kong，Yoanah Chan助理
摄像师：Kason Tam & Alvin Kong
视频编辑：Kason Tam & Alvin Kong
化妆：Janice Lam
发型：Eas Fu
采访：A女士
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